"OMG SUMMER!" No....stop.

We all have big expectations for summer. Every year, school gets out and every single person in the school says 'summer is gonna be crazy' or 'this is gonnna be the one to remember'. I finished school saying both of these to myself, but with a little doubt. You make all the plans to take road trips and bonfires and parties and such, but here i am in summer school, after that babysitting. And to take it to the next level, softball. Speaking of that; i'm done. There comes a point where things in your life, no longer make you feel like you love them anymore. I've played softball since i was five and playing on a college exposure team has been to competetive for me. The number one rule of the game is no longer 'have fun' it's 'don't make a mistake or everyone will be dissapointed in you and judge you and yell at you'. Its not longer go out there and try your hardest and if you make a mistake its okay because its just a game. Its no longer leaving the house excited and pumped to beat your friends and laugh at your mistakes. Now, i leave the house dreading it, wishing it didnt exist anymore, that i had not made the decision i had made. Its like listening to a song over and over again... After a while, you really just get sick of it, and when you hear it on the radio, youre disgusted and have to change the song! No longer is that a part of summer in which i enjoy.

Fridays are good days.

This is all for reference. To remember those mornings when you wake up and you are just genuinely happy. Through out the whole day you have a smile on your face and cannot stop. Although I had no big plans for today, I started getting pumped up for the big audition on wednesday and it lifted my spirits. And to top off the night, the family and I hauled it all the way to Schaumburg for a little comedy improv. These are the days where you just want to close your eyes and soak it all in. To keep that moment alive to remember how you felt at that second.

Some days.

We all have those days.
You wake up, shower, take your shower, get dressed and do your make up.
Why? You just sit there and think about what could happen during the day. And then you're reminded when you watch a typical teenage lifestyle show that your life is just, average.
As I type this first blogthink to ourselves how much better our life could be. Just like in the movies or on your favorite tv show. Instead of focusing on how much our life sucks and how we wish it would be something else, let's just live in the moment and make it the best life that we can.
Although cheesy, it's some good thinking.